OMG! i think i m getting very greedy!
i m asking for more and more.
like kinda addicted. NO i can't.
i told myself i would be contented if only this happen and blah blah.
i m really happy and contented though when this really happened.
BUT i wanted more.
i m a greedy pig!
i keep telling myself i ought to be contented with what i have.
but the more i get the more i want more!
[okies ppl don't let ur mind run wild. you wont understand what i m trying to say anyway. ]
i just want to rant. i been keeping this post off from ppl by not posting it.
but why? this is my blog. [sorry for being rude (: ]
i don't know what got into me.
but but...
and sometimes i just feel that i lack of sth in my blood
that i can't smile or be hyper.
i lack of sth that keep me going.
i need ppl to understand me;
to support me;
to give me some strength to walk on my own.
they are like drugs to me. that i needed badly.
my family, my close ones, my friends.
i need them.
what am i without them?
i don't know.
i just want to be myself,
i don't wanna be emotionally affected.
i don't want to be affected by a little things.
i want to be strong enough to handle things myself
i want to be brave.
i don't wanna runaway.
but sometimes i just can't. [i'm sorry]
i just want this smile to last, please
[someone up there, you heard me?]
